tiger_moran: (horse)
I am so tired of the 'joke' along the lines of 'horses just die if you so much as look at them wrong'. This really bugs me even if most people don't mean it seriously (though I think too many people don't even seem to see it as a joke, they actually seem to just believe it's true), because we make most of this stuff happen, most of this isn't how horses just are, it's human beings forcing them into unnatural situations, or humans lacking in common sense or in some cases just not actually caring that causes many of these animals' deaths or injuries. Sure the fact that for example horses can't vomit is basically 'bad design' but even that's no more ridiculous than some of the design flaws of the human body (like how easy it is for us to seal off our own windpipes with food and choke to death, or that in many people it's their own immune system that's harming them).
 
But horses are prey animals and they also can't see directly in front of them so of course they spook at things that seem ridiculous to us but we basically expect them so often just because they're domesticated to be fine and not spooky and to magically just understand always that cars or planes or fireworks or whatever are probably not going to actually kill them or that that's just a piece of paper or a crisp packet or the wind rattling the roof or whatever not an Evil Monster That Is Going to Eat Them, even though they can't tell or comprehend what it is and they also can't just override their instincts that have been instilled into them over millions of years of evolution to get the hell out of there.
 
Also too often people just ignore that horses can sense things we can't, like they can smell things we can't for example. Like for instance they get written off as just Being A Stubborn Asshole and the rider gets told to whip them yet it turns out the horse can smell smoke from a wildfire and that's why it's refusing to move, or it can presumably smell that the wooden bridge they're trying to get it to cross is rotten and when they finally force it onto the bridge it breaks under them - I remember that one from a pony magazine and they were very very lucky the pony and the rider weren't killed or more badly injured but if they'd paid attention to the pony in the first place that wouldn't have happened. But then I wonder how many times do people act like the horse is just being unreasonable or stupid without finding out the cause. It's like a horse that charged through its paddock fence and injured itself so badly it had to be destroyed. It probably did so because some fucker was harassing it with a drone and it was terrified of it, but the only reason they ever found that out and didn't just write it off as the horse stupidly running into the fence for no reason was because part of the incident happened just on the edge of where the CCTV camera in the yard managed to catch it. But how many times has a horse died or horribly injured itself for similar reasons and it's been written off as just 'stupid horse behaviour' because in those cases there was no CCTV? I know of a mare who was turned out in a field and she also ran straight through the wooden fence there, broke the railings, ripped her chest open on them and she too had to be put down because her injuries were so bad. I don't know if that was an avoidable situation or not, whether someone else's actions frightened her or something else got her hyped up or whether the owner could have done something differently but the basic fact is, even in the best conditions, if we didn't put fences in the way of them they wouldn't be able to run into them. We create these situations, not the horses. It's not the horses' fault that we put them in small fields with fences that can hurt them if they spook and run into them, or even just if they get excited and misjudge the distance, or that we usually put metal shoes on their feet which raise their natural soles off the ground which can make them more prone to slipping or we shut them in the fields which are often slippery anyway because of humans' actions (through putting too many horses in one small field and it quickly getting churned up into mud, or us changing how the land drains, or whatever).
 
And we put tack on them that even if it's not directly harmful to them can injure them or kill them if it gets tangled on something or they get a leg caught up in it (and probably even more so nowadays, when there's more and more synthetic tack and when leather and other natural materials, which would generally tend to break more easily, seem to be becoming less common) and also we frequently seem to leave them in stables that are obviously unsafe with things they could easily get caught up on. I've seen too many stables with things like nails sticking out or low beams or low roofs or narrow or too low doorways that they could so easily badly hurt themselves on, or people giving them haynets that are tied far too low down or all these other totally unsafe things like the fields fenced with barbed wire or with stuff like jumps left out in them, or the gateways that are too narrow or with bolts or latches left sticking out or something else that they can horrifically injure themselves on. People should know better but so often they don't. Like someone I vaguely know posted a picture once of herself saying hi to some horses (not ones she actually knew) and they were both wearing these modern fancy rugs that were torn up and obviously being damaged by the horses rubbing against the barbed wire fencing you could see in the picture with them, yet whoever owned those horses apparently didn't see any problem with the fact their horses are clearly repeatedly getting their rugs caught on it and it might only be a matter of time before one or both the horses got badly hurt doing that. 
 
And we feed them and keep them often in a completely unnatural way, generally expecting them to eat larger meals far less often instead of allowing them to be basically constantly eating grasses as their digestive systems are designed to do, and we often stuff them full of rich foods and supplements instead of mostly roughage (which not only is an unnatural way of eating for them but can also even sometimes 'hot them up' and make them more prone to 'silly' or spooky behaviour). Or we keep them shut up in stables so they're not moving around and digesting food as they move more like wild horses would. We also subject them to stresses, and then after we do all this we act like it's somehow their fault or 'just how horses are' when they end up with ulcers or colic or exhibiting really self-destructive behaviours.
 
We also screwed up so many of them now basically just for the sake of money, so yeah we have taller and faster horses but they have spindly long legs that will snap far more easily. They didn't just evolve that way, we forced most of that to happen.
 
And this isn't even getting into the horse sports and the things we expect horses to do in some of those where too often they're pushed to extremes and then people still act like it's totally bizarre and unexpected or just more proof of how 'horses are just like that' when some of them drop dead from the strain or break their legs or their necks. Or the ignoring how often horses are being 'assholes' or 'a bitch' or 'flighty' or 'spooky' or whatever because either they don't understand the rider or handler or actually they're in pain and they can't communicate that in any other way.
 
I'm sorry I just can't find this sort of thing funny, even this just sort of jokey blaming horses and saying they're badly designed and all have a death wish, when most of this is the result of humans' actions and also when I know of or have heard of too many horror stories of horses being either killed outright or fatally injured and having to be destroyed or being not fatally but still horribly injured in incidents that would have been completely avoided if humans had been more sensible or more compassionate. And I just hate this blaming animals or making out animals are unreasonable thing especially when the majority of the time why animals do a thing has a perfectly reasonable explanation, we just might not understand the reason why. It's like the people who got angry with their dog for continually 'barking at nothing' in the night and yelled at him to shut up, only to find out the next morning he had actually been barking at burglars breaking into a shed to steal bikes and stuff.
 
There's this tumblr post with the ~funny anecdote~ about how 'the horse hanged itself' which is just... that's horrible and it's just false. The horse didn't deliberately hang itself, it was left tacked up and unsupervised in a stable and when it got the tack caught up somehow understandably it panicked and fatally injured itself. That is completely the fault of humans. Yet tens of thousands of people are going on about horses being stupid ridiculous animals and how they kill themselves over the slightest thing and all shit like that. It pisses me off.
tiger_moran: (Moran)
I'm going to preface this by saying it is genuinely impressive that the BBC Sherlock fandom or at least a part of it has done so much with Sebastian Moran, it is impressive that he's become considered such a major character in that that thousands of fanworks exist for him or for 'mormor' in that universe and I've even seen some very confused other BBC Sherlock fans asking essentially who the hell is Sebastian Moran and convinced that they've somehow missed something significant somewhere because they don't understand where this Moran came from or how he came to be considered a major character alongside [Jim] Moriarty so often. Some of them seriously seemed to think he must have actually been in the show somewhere and they just missed it, and it is so impressive that some of the fans achieved that kind of 'official status' almost for a character who didn't appear in the show and who was apparently just demeaned and treated as if he didn't matter at all by the show's creators. Also I talked a little in my meta essay The Mythology of Moriarty and Moran about how Moriarty can be viewed as a sort of trickster figure, and I do feel as if a fandom effectively bringing this other character (non-existent in that particular universe) into being to the extent it has led some people to believe he was an actual character in the show, or else it has left a lot of people being very confused about where on earth this guy came from and wondering if there's something wrong with their memory, feels like a very in-character thing for a trickster to do, something that is very fitting for someone connected to Moriarty. It's also just quite funny really that this has happened.

However...

While I think the majority of the fans of that take on Moran do understand where Moran came from and more or less how he came to be in that fandom, there is still a tendency for some of the fans to over-exaggerate the part that that fandom has played in Moran's creation. I have seen some BBC Sherlock fans in the past congratulating themselves and the other BBC Sherlock Moran fans or 'mormor' shippers for inventing Moran - literally inventing him, as if they think he is an original character entirely created from scratch. I can't prove that people ever said anything like this because this was invariably in Tumblr posts by people I didn't know or have any interaction with and those posts have long since either been deleted or got lost in the mists of time, but I know I saw this happen more than once over the years. And there are still even now people talking about how the BBC Sherlock fandom created Moran and erasing other takes on him, erasing the influence of other versions and other adaptations, and erasing fans of other incarnations too in the process really, whether they mean to do this or not.

There is this very annoying tendency for BBC Sherlock still to take over, perhaps less so nowadays with characters such as Holmes and Watson or with pairings like Holmes/Watson but still when it comes to Moran and when it comes to shipping him with anyone, especially with Moriarty but also probably with anyone else too. Not only is the majority of fan-created content for Moran or for Moriarty/Moran (or Moran/most other characters even) for BBC Sherlock, still a lot of Moran fans seem to assume or act as if Moran is only a BBC Sherlock character, or that the ship name refers solely to BBC Sherlock, that it's only a BBC Sherlock pairing. It's still too often treated like not only the most popular or most common version but as if it's the only one that exists or the default, which does seem a little ironic given that Moran doesn't canonically exist in the show.

Just recently my attention was drawn to someone's comment saying "Speaking as someone who was once heavily into BBC Sherlock (whose fandom nearly invented Sebastian Moran to be Jim Moriarty's right hand, despite only being mentioned once in the books and never in the series...)". But this is simply not true! Moran is a character from the Sherlock Holmes canon, he was created by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle and was the main antagonist in The Empty House. He was also referred to with further details added about him in The Valley of Fear and was mentioned in a couple more canonical stories. He was explicitly called Moriarty's friend and "bosom friend" canonically and he also worked as Moriarty's "chief of staff" and was described as the 'first link in Moriarty's chain' amongst other things. There were also multiple details in the canon that suggested he was the 'mirror' character or the narrative foil to Dr John Watson even if Conan Doyle never really expanded on this idea himself. It does feel rather insulting firstly to Arthur Conan Doyle for people to act like they did so much with Moran while claiming (wrongly) that effectively all Conan Doyle did was put in this single 'mention'. Even if Conan Doyle didn't really care about Moran, he created him, he made him an antagonist in one of the stories, he found him interesting enough apparently also to bring him up in another story and further mention him a couple more times. He also created the basis of much of what has been done with Moran both in pastiches/adaptations and in the fandom more generally, with elements such as Moran's devotion to Moriarty or Moran's father Augustus for example. None of this would have happened without Conan Doyle so to act as if Moran is largely (or even sometimes, totally) a BBC Sherlock fandom creation does seem insulting to Conan Doyle to me.

The BBC Sherlock fandom invented a version of Moran specifically to fit in that universe, that's all. It is impressive, but it's not at all as comments like that suggest: they did not invent Moran, they did not invent him being Moriarty's 'right hand' and he absolutely definitely was not only "mentioned once in the books". Some of the fans have also acted similarly about 'mormor' too, or the shipping of Moran with Moriarty, as if the BBC Sherlock fandom was the first to ever consider the idea of shipping the pairing or as if BBC Sherlock is the only version to inspire fanworks for the pairing, which is also totally false. One of the biggest influences on people creating Moriarty/Moran content was undoubtedly Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows (which came out at around the same time as much of BBC Sherlock did), but other fanworks existed for Moran or for Moriarty/Moran before that, and before BBC Sherlock as well, and more has still been created for other universes even more recently too. Even I wrote Moriarty/Moran content before A Game of Shadows came out and before the pairing ever really became a properly established thing in the BBC Sherlock fandom and I wasn't even particularly a Moriarty/Moran shipper then, I just loved Moran and fell hard for him the first time I read the canon and Moriarty/Moran was one of the most obvious relationships involving him.

This acting as if the BBC Sherlock fandom is the only real version or the default does also tend to erase anyone else, any of the fans who like Moran (and Moriarty for that matter) in other versions, including the canon, and especially those not in the BBC Sherlock fandom at all; the fans who just loved Moran and never had anything to do with the BBC Sherlock fandom's 'invention' of 'their' Moran; the fans who create anything about Moran or Moriarty/Moran completely separately or independently from the BBC Sherlock fans. Often we and what we create gets largely ignored or forgotten about, even while we seem to get lumped in with the BBC Sherlock fans and shippers and assumed to be a part of that fandom. Probably plenty of people who like other versions of Moran do also like the BBC Sherlock fandom take on him, and that's fine! But it's not true of all of us and it's so, so frustrating to be constantly either ignored or erased while being wrongly assumed to be a part of a fandom I'm not and to have it assumed that I'm referring to an incarnation of the character I'm not referring to every time I say anything about Moran or about 'mormor'. 

I am not a BBC Sherlock fan, I am not a part of the BBC Sherlock fandom and have never had anything to do with creating anything for Moran or for Moriarty/Moran in that fandom. I've never even consumed the majority of the BBC Sherlock Moran or 'mormor' content, because I don't like the character of Moriarty in the show and I also know that take on the pairing is mostly going to be very different to the takes on the characters and the pairing that I like. Yet people still assume I'm referring to this BBC Sherlock fandom take on Moran when I talk about him, they still assume I'm referring to 'BBC mormor' in many of my posts about Moriarty/Moran. Then when I create proper content, fanfiction, meta, occasionally fanart, for them, things which are more obviously not anything to do with the BBC Sherlock material, it gets largely ignored, even at the same time other people seem to still expect me to be interested in the BBC Sherlock Moran and 'mormor' content. It's disappointing, not just how people like me and our content get ignored or erased but also how the canon and other versions that have done good things with the characters gets erased as well.

I fell in love with Moran just from the canon, literally just from what Arthur Conan Doyle wrote about him. Moran in AGoS then further added to many of my ideas about him and maybe in some ways made me love him even more fiercely, but he was my favourite canonical character even before that. AGoS did also turn me into a diehard Moriarty/Moran shipper and made me also look in much more depth into the canonical material about Moriarty as well, but my initial and overall love for him and them and that pairing came from the canon. It has never had anything to do with BBC Sherlock or even largely to do with any other adaptation. But I think to some extent because of the unfortunate fact that, as a minor character and with Moriarty/Moran being a 'rarepair', older content for him and them has been fairly thin on the ground anyway and then much of what was created has got lost over time, posted on websites that no longer exist, or it's been deleted as people move on to new interests, or it was material that never even got digitised because it predated computers perhaps, so many people have just forgotten that other versions of them exist and that other fans outside of the BBC Sherlock fandom had to have existed in the past and indeed still exist now. And it is just sad how that's happened and how it keeps happening. 

ETA: after writing this I spent a long time going through the works and authors on AO3 and I am definitely one of the people who has written the most Sebastian Moran and Moriarty/Moran works (for any/all universes) in fact quite possibly I am the person who has written the most, at least for content on there. Yet still people act like or assume Moran and Moriarty/Moran is just a BBC Sherlock thing. And I'm not asking people to automatically love my work or anything but I am asking them to please at least stop erasing anything beyond the BBC fandom, not just my work but the work of multiple other people too; please stop forgetting that Moran is not just a BBC Sherlock fandom thing and please stop making it sound as if the BBC Sherlock fans invented Moran or invented him being close to Moriarty or the concept of shipping him with Moriarty, or as if the BBC Sherlock fans are the only people who have ever loved the character or pairing.
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I don't have pics unfortunately but there's an unusual bird in the park near here where we go occasionally and I wonder if it's a melanistic grey heron. It's definitely heron-shaped with the long straight stabby beak and it's definitely a bird that hunts fish. It doesn't look like a cormorant in shape, the beak doesn't look like the right shape, but the colour is very dark grey or almost black, nothing like the regular grey herons (which we get flying overhead occasionally (also sitting on a rooftop nearby once) and I've also seen down on the ponds on the newer housing estate). If it's the same bird I've seen it twice, once flying around the lake last late summer or autumn and then today it was diving under the water repeatedly which supposedly is quite rare behaviour for herons but definitely does happen. I can't find any kind of bird that matches the shape and colour except possibly melanistic grey herons. (I don't think it's just a juvenile grey heron, it looks much darker than those and if it is the same bird then it's looked the same months apart too)
tiger_moran: (Ukraine)
I found out a band I quite like are supporters of the russian invasion of Ukraine and apparently the singer/main member made some kind of half-assed apology and claimed he 'didn't understand the post' he was liking but he has also been mocking and trolling the social media pages of a record label which has continually supported Ukraine when he got criticised for supporting russia so guess who I won't be supporting ever again.
(Not one of my real favourite bands thankfully but I had bought a few of their songs some years back. I wish I hadn't now but this was before anyone really knew the extent of their shittiness and I can't unbuy them so what can you do. Thankfully at least I can definitely say I have spent many times that amount both on buying music from Ukrainian artists and on supporting Ukraine generally so that's something I suppose.) 
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I'm trying to sort out my wardrobe and put some of those hanging organisers in and clear out anything that's for donating/recycling but I've only got as far as removing the T shirts and I'm already exhausted. 
tiger_moran: (stand with Ukraine)
It sucks when you like a Ukrainian band but they've released nothing for years and do not seem to have updated their social media anywhere and you have to play the guessing game of 'did they just break up/stop making music anyway or did something awful happen to them'. (I can't remember which band it was now but there was one, the last time they updated anything was the beginning of February 2022. So... yeah.)
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People lately seem to suddenly be going through this phase of posting content for canon/Granada Moriarty/Moran but where it's treated like Moriarty HAS to die and that's essentially the only way they're allowed to be together at all, if in the end they get 'punished', or for a podcast I hate that basically makes both characters (along with Adler and Holmes and Watson and... pretty much everyone actually) almost completely unrecognisable and where the amount of heteronormative bullshit in it is absolutely off the scale and that seems to be designed mainly to cater for people who barely know anything about Sherlock Holmes in general and who don't like Moriarty or Moran or their relationship.
Honestly I liked it better when nobody else gave a shit about the characters.
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There's part of me that would so like to write my honest opinion about certain published stories but then the other part of me thinks that would be cruel. I mean I don't have an issue really criticising something when it's something (relatively) 'mainstream' but when it's something smaller... it does feel kind of cruel.
But man I really did dislike these particular things SO MUCH. 
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I just happened to see something about a guy talking about having a panic attack and suddenly remembered two (maybe three?) instances when I was a teenager when I had what I realise now were panic attacks and actually quite severe ones but I never even thought about them before like that, I never realised that's what they were, even though they were actually more severe with more alarming symptoms than others I've had. I mean during both of them I couldn't see anything, my vision went totally black as if I was fainting (I didn't faint though), I couldn't hear because there was such a loud ringing in my ears. This was along with the sudden sense of severe nausea. 
Weird, that I never really registered those as panic attacks before, or even just how that really wasn't normal to experience something like that, but then, these happened when I was sitting in a classroom amongst other people and nobody noticed so I guess I just sort of assumed... if nobody else noticed anything wrong it can't have been anything really wrong. But I think also maybe that's because I didn't, paradoxically maybe, actually feel like I was panicking then? It was just like oh something is happening to me, it wasn't like not being able to breathe, or the sense of being very detached from my body it was very... insular, like the opposite of being detached almost, I was very much compressed down into my body because I couldn't see or hear anything, the external had ceased to exist. It wasn't even frightening really because... it was like emotions didn't exist. It didn't feel like panic or anxiety. That's probably why I didn't really register them for what they were actually because it's like... surely you feel like you're panicking and afraid if you're having a panic attack but somehow even going temporarily blind and essentially deaf as well wasn't really frightening somehow, it was kind of too overwhelming to be frightening. 
That is so strange though. 
Also actually quite useful to remember since I'm writing a story with a character who has panic/anxiety attacks sometimes (albeit ones related mostly to his PTSD). 
tiger_moran: (trains)
I just confirmed that one of my very earliest memories is of watching trains and that I didn't imagine this.
While researching trains and the old railways I remembered, being in a flat, not right high up but maybe two or three storeys up, looking out the window at the railway line below and watching the trains on it (British Rail trains! I remember the blue and yellow) for quite a while. I've never lived in a flat, nobody I know well has ever lived in a block of flats, so either it had to be the home of someone else I don't really know or I imagined this. I asked my parents about this now and they finally did remember this. It was a friend of my grandma's who apparently we called Auntie Kath who used to send me cards and presents when I was little; she lived in one of these flats and we did visit her once and there were trains on the railway below, going to the station nearby. But she died when I was only small so I would have been very young in this memory. It's nice to have it confirmed really, I did really like trains when I was little, and though the interest in them waned massively for most of the rest of my life (I think mostly because in those days it was almost impossible to actually find anything about diesel trains; I do remember wanting to know about diesels but there being very little in any of the library books about diesels, the children's books were largely only about steam trains and I guess nobody ever considered giving 'adult' books to a little kid then) it just took one random little event a few years back to trigger it again.  
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I love those articles which are like 'how to organise your living space' type things and when talking about bedrooms and how to organise your clothing storage they show the wardrobe with about 6 items of clothing in. Of course you can organise things neatly and make space if you throw out nearly all of your clothes!
Also you notice the things that take up a lot of the space in reality never seem to exist in these articles, like they always seem to assume either you magically have somewhere else to put all the bulky stuff like winter coats and boots or you just wear the same flimsy tops and thin trousers and one pair of lightweight shoes through the entire year.
tiger_moran: (dog)
I had to reunite yet another dog with its owner this afternoon, that's what, about 6 or something now. 
I only saw him because we (me and my dog) were kind of hiding because I saw the dog he hates in the distance (he likes most dogs but there are these select ones he has a major grudge against) and I was trying to wait for that to go down another road before he saw it and started kicking off about it. While we were kind of hiding from that dog this elderly brown labrador suddenly comes wandering up to us. Such a sweet old boy, wanted to say hi to my dog and wanted pets and treats. All he had on his ID tag was his name and a mobile number (in this weird narrow tiny font I couldn't really read) though so I didn't know where he actually came from, he's not one I recognised. I thought for a bit I'd have to bring him home with us so someone could call his owner but then I could hear someone using a pressure washer or something in one of the roads nearby so I wondered if he'd come from there so I took him there, he was just happily following us because I had got treats, and then when we got nearer I heard someone in that garden say to the other person something like 'Where's the dog gone' so yeah, it was their dog. So I guess it was a good job I did see my dog's nemesis and decided to hide from him because I wouldn't have seen this labrador otherwise and he could easily have wandered off even further and got himself hurt before the people noticed he was missing.
His name was Diesel. Excellent name. 
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I've seen multiple people referring to Moriarty from canon/other universes as William now, this is even worse than the 'referring to every incarnation of Moriarty as Jim' thing. William is a name from an anime or manga or whatever the hell it is, it's absolutely nothing to do with the canon or any other universe! Shut up!
(I do wish people would stop telling me to watch Moriarty the Patriot. I don't care about it! And I don't give a shit about "sherliam"! And I can't stand anime! About four times now I've had random people butting in to say something about it and rave about it and tell me to watch it when I've stated multiple times I don't give a shit about it and I am not interested in watching it. Like I said something about how I'll never get the Holmes/Moriarty pairing and some random person came in to tell me to 'watch Moriarty the Patriot and you'll totally get it'. As if that show was the thing that started the pairing anyway (it's not). And as if every single person who watches it is going to automatically care about and ship the same pairing. Also I can guarantee I wouldn't get or like the pairing even if I did watch it (I still remember people about series 1 of Sherlock being like "How can you watch this and not ship johnlock!" and stuff like that and I'm sitting there thinking what the hell are you seeing because it's clearly something totally different to what I saw)
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I'm officially writing my own modern day(ish) Moriarty/Moran story (novel? Possibly) potentially for publication, I guess the only way to make me actually like modern day stuff for them is to (as always) do it myself so I can see characters I actually still recognise. I started off by writing a modern day fic with them meeting which is still the starting point for this but I'm revising that and expanding on it massively and I actually have most of a plot mapped out? Which is weird because mostly I cannot do plot.
It does seem to be turning out to be significantly darker than most of the stuff I've ever written for them though. Moran in particular is... definitely going through some shit in it.
It also has a weird amount of Holmes and Watson (and probably Holmes/Watson) content in too (weird for me anyway considering how much the fandom made me hate the pairing, but I've become rather fond of them in this already). Also Mycroft, which is also weird cos he is a character who rarely interests me that much. It's also made me oddly interested in the Moran and Watson relationship, particularly with the idea that they were lovers in Afghanistan (it is kind of fucked that Afghanistan still fits in the modern day) and Watson genuinely cares about Moran and wants to save him and help him adjust to a 'normal' life and deal with his trauma and then he gets faced with the realisation that Moran is always going to be his dark mirror and ultimately an antagonist and he's always going to choose the Professor over the 'normal' life and his friendship with Watson. 

And even in the modern day I'm still giving Moran a horse in this.
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I'm definitely wondering again why I post, well, anything online since I either get almost completely ignored (or totally ignored very often) or else people respond to say something condescending and going on about something I wasn't talking about which makes it extremely obvious that aside from totally misunderstanding what I've said then they've not actually paid attention to anything I've ever said or written before either.
And I'm still just... so bitter that I can say something about Moriarty and it gets totally ignored and then some Holmes fan (and let's be honest, probably Holmes/Watson shipper) says the exact same thing I've said and everyone thinks that's amazing and such a great point and they actually, like, discuss this? I'm not saying they stole my point, I have no idea whether that's just coincidence or not, but what I am saying is I'm sick of how you can say the exact same thing as other people and say it first but because you like the 'wrong' pairing or the 'wrong' version of the pairing nobody gives a shit about anything you say ever. And like people ask questions about something and I have answered them and they just... ignore me? Totally ignore me? So why ask a question in a public place if you're just going to ignore someone who bothers to give you a detailed answer to something nobody else has ever answered? I don't know what anyone wants from me, I say the same things as they go on about and I get ignored, I try to help people and I get ignored. And also... my fics... I say should I write such and such and multiple people go yes! And are really enthusiastic about the idea! And so I write it and... like one person out of all of them actually cares, none of the rest give a shit. And I'm left with the impression again that most of these people have literally no idea what I've ever said or written before, so why bother saying they wanted more fic from me? I don't know what you want or expect from me.
And I have basically no fucks left to give about finishing one fic any more because of all of this. It's like, nobody else cares so why should I give a damn about finishing it.
tiger_moran: (Moran)
I'm going to be brutally honest here, while I agree Moran would be a very good father and I love the idea of him being good with the 'street urchins' and those sorts of kids, I absolutely hate the idea of him actually having a child of his own.
(I've spent way too long having to dodge that Alex Moran-Moriarty shit and it's made me very twitchy about the whole idea on top of me just... not liking children/child characters or parent and child relationships anyway. Even though they're always talking about some entirely different version of Moran with that, the whole idea of Moran with a kid of his own just fills me with this sort of... visceral sense of loathing.)
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I wrote a modern day AU 'Moriarty meets a random guy to have sex with once only things don't really turn out that way' (the 'random guy' is Moran of course) fic and I'm giving serious thought to writing a proper story for publication using this fic as a basis but revising and expanding on it. I would love to include some of my OCs in it too.

Although I'm currently trying to finish this fic I started which is a sequel to another fic I wrote based around The Final Problem. In it Moran seems to be flirting with practically everyone, has previously probably slept with at least two of the characters aside from Moriarty and because I'm still a Moran/Holmes shipper deep down I decided to include this thing I started ages ago where it's kind of a threesome but not but also it's Moran/Holmes but in some sense it's Moriarty/Holmes by proxy? (I am really not a Moriarty/Holmes shipper but I do like the idea of Moriarty being amused by screwing with Holmes by having Moran seduce him in front of him. This probably sounds kind of like dubcon out of context but it really isn't.)
Moran is just... very shippable with a lot of characters (sexually anyway. I don't see him as having real 'feelings' for anyone except Moriarty though)
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I saw someone describing 'mormor' as a relationship with "unhealthy violent obsession" and this very effectively demonstrates how we are clearly never talking about the same pairing despite the pairing I love (unfortunately) sharing the same names (sort of) with that pairing.
Yet people still seem to expect me to view them as interchangeable and want to read BBC Sherlock stuff
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 My dog just started howling in his sleep again, I guess he dreams about being a wolf
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Thinking about ghost trains again 

I'm obsessed with the idea you could be driving somewhere or walking along somewhere and suddenly there's this sound and this train where there shouldn't be a train any more but it's still running where it remembers running, new roads and paths and housing estates be damned and just as you're expecting to be hit it goes past you (or through even) but you can feel the rush of air, or the steam, you can smell the smoke or the oil or the diesel, you can hear it clanking and whistling as it goes past/through/over you. 

I have been reading about haunted railway tunnels but those always seem to involve people who were supposedly hit by trains or died digging out the tunnels or were murdered haunting the tunnels and that isn't what I'm looking for, I want to know about ghost trains. I am sure I did read a few years ago about one in the USA where people have said they have seen trains inside or coming out of a long unused tunnel but now I can't find that.

I do love the idea though that there's some sort of temporal anomaly in/near some train tunnels though. I've heard of other 'time slips' elsewhere and this being one possible explanation for many supposed 'ghosts' but I've read about one near a train tunnel and this being given as a possible reason why they never managed to sink a ventilation shaft to the tunnel, because for some reason time is really screwed up around this hill. (I still can't find anything about 'ghost' trains there even so. Some stuff about hearing train whistles sometimes but that's all).

And then my mind goes back to that Arthur Conan Doyle story The Lost Special and its disappearing train and how that could well involve Moriarty. Also time and the idea of devouring time was a thing I had in my vampire stuff. There is a coherent idea here I know there is, a way to link all of this together, I've just got to work it out (sadly that's much easier said than done).  

I would particularly love to put the ghost of D326 in something. Or the Fell locomotive 10100 (I love that butt ugly train so much).

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